You deserve a man who is confident of himself even if he has not reached the same level of success as you. It takes a real man to be this person. And maybe, you have not met this person… yet.
You don’t owe anyone an explanation, especially for why you do what you do and when you do it. You are responsible for your own actions.
You are deserving of the love that honors you as a person and glorifies everything that you are.
Believe that one day, the process would’ve already taken its course and that you will be okay.