Losing Me Was Never Your Loss

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Losing me is not your loss

because you found me to only be mediocre. You are looking for someone to be your moon and stars and I was only a star, or perhaps a galaxy. Either way, I wasn’t enough. You are looking for someone who makes you want to be a better person and maybe I didn’t do that for you. Maybe you didn’t like me because I wasn’t pretty enough, smart enough, skinny enough. Or maybe it wasn’t that I wasn’t enough but too much. I could have been too independent, too caring, or too honest. Whether too much or not enough I wasn’t what you were looking for.

Losing me isn’t your loss

because you chose it. You chose to leave. When you choose to abandon something I don’t think you do it because you love it, well maybe sometimes, but usually because you don’t want it. It doesn’t fit in your life. It doesn’t belong there. I don’t belong in your life. At least not in a romantic way. That is okay though. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me. I want us to choose each other. So, it may sting a little but really, I get to thank you for this. Now I am not wasting time on something that isn’t meant to be.

Losing me isn’t your loss

because in all reality you gained something from this. You found out more about what you are looking for in a partner. You found out what you don’t like. I was a part of your journey to lead you to the person you are destined to be with. I am glad I was able to be a chapter in your book as you a chapter in mine. However, the way we choose to write this chapter, our chapter, might be expressed in different ways. That’s the beauty of it all though, we get to write our own stories. I am thankful for your contribution to mine.

Although I had hoped to find us together at this moment instead of in separate beds, separate houses, separate towns, I am happy to be where I am. I am a stronger person because of you. So no, losing me wasn’t your loss and losing you wasn’t mine. We grew from this. Maybe me more than you or vice versa but regardless, we grew. We made a difference in each other’s lives and to me that is not at all a loss.