17 People Confess The Dark Secret That Would Fuck Their Life If It Got Out

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1. Turned my father into the cops

I found my Dad’s CP stash and reported him to the police. He thinks one of his former co-workers ratted him out.

As I was only 13 at the time, the police agreed to “raid” our house in addition to his workplace. The raid simply consisted of a really nice detective who was friends with my mum who simply stopped by to pick up my dad’s PC.

If he or his family ever worked it out, I’m pretty sure they’d kill me as the charges fucked him over massively.

— ASIOsaysHi

2. I’ve actually never been to college

Three years ago I attended a local community college while living with my parents. Or so they thought. In reality I hit a moment in my life where I realized I didn’t want to go to college anymore after having been forced to leave NC State University due to money falling through. I sat at home, slept all day, and played on my computer with friends into all hours of the night. When my parents actually did stay home for the day instead of working I’d go to ‘school’. Which was really me finding a shady parking lot to sleep in my car all day. Yes it was massively uncomfortable since my area gets really hot in summer and really cold in winter. One time I even had to walk 3 miles in the snow, cold, and wind because I had to have my mother drop me off at the school. I then hid in the backseat of my car inside a sleeping bag I put in beforehand. I couldn’t stretch my legs at all so it was super uncomfortable, but at least it was warm.

Anyway, I’ve essentially betrayed the trust of my parents who are exceptionally great people. If they found out I did this I don’t know what they’d do. They think I have an associate’s degree in computer science and I don’t have the slightest inkling of the subject. I’m probably gonna die with the secret of my fake degree because I’d rather lie forever than hurt my parents with the truth.

— somethingeducated

3. Got blackmailed with my nudes

Some guy convinced naive 15 year old me to send nudes and then used it against me for 6 months. He found me on Facebook and threatened to send them to my friends list if I didn’t do whatever he asked me too. He would make me get online whenever he asked and have me masturbate for him. He even tried to get me to meet up with him in person. I got really lucky when his profiles just disappeared one day and I took that opportunity to delete every social media account I had. I haven’t gone back since and I never will. It really fucked me up for a while but I don’t really have anyone to blame but myself. It’s been 6 years since and I still haven’t told anyone I know this story.

For those of you asking why I didn’t go to the police, I’m a South Asian female with a very conservative family. I didn’t see telling my family about what happened as an option at the time, and I still don’t. I just wanted this whole situation to go away ASAP.

(I just wanted to thank everyone for the support. This secret has been something I’ve kept to myself for 6 years and it really means a lot that you all have been so kind to me. I didn’t expect for my post to get this much attention but I’ll try to respond as much I can between classes!)

— justcasuallydying

4. What we do in bed

My wife and I have a pretty dirty sex life. If the pictures we have taken playing our role plays would become public we would have to leave our jobs or at least work for the same company but far away where no one would know us.

— Smeman

5. Having sex with my cousin

I’ve been in a strictly sexual relationship with a first cousin for the last five years. We only ever saw each other once or twice a year growing up before she moved to the other side of the country and then never really saw or interacted with each other again until 5 years ago when she moved back. What started as us meeting up one in awhile has become a regular thing in the last few months. It’s escalated to the point where we’re now sexting each other.I’m scared to death of what might happen if anyone in our family finds out but I don’t want to stop what’s happening either.

Here’s the story: It all started out very slow before it escalated into full on sex. I was informed by another cousin of ours and asked to help her move since I was free at the time. We started hanging out throughout that summer and then one afternoon we had brunch and then went back to chill at her apartment. One thing led to another and we started making out and next thing I know i had my hand down her skirt. We both came to our senses and stopped before anything went any further. We decided to forget it happened and move past it but every time we met up after that we’d make out and push our boundaries until we eventually ended up having sex. Afterwards, we were meeting up regularly until we both got really busy with work and only met up on occasion. We completely stopped when each of us had a significant other but would start hooking up again every so often when we are single. As mentioned before, now it’s become a regular occurrence where we hook up multiple times a week and we’ve been sexting with each other now.

— accidentaltouching

6. Once was a prostitute

I was a short lived prostitute. Only did it a few times (no pimp just me selling myself out on Tinder or Plenty of Fish), before stopping.

— meowitsmichelle

7. Got raped by my cousin multiple times

My cousin raped me several times.

My grandmother passed away yesterday, and my father is making funeral arrangements and needs me there with him.

I’m panicked because I need to be with my father, but that same cousin will be there. He will try again. I don’t know what to do. I know it’s easy to say “don’t be left alone with him”, but who knows what he will pull to do it. He’s insane. He’s a body builder. I’m a 5’1 female.

This is causing a serious strain on my mental health. In less than 24 hours, I’ve pretty much shut down completely. I called out of work because I cannot handle being around people.

(I did not expect this kind of response. Thank you to everyone who has encouraged me to tell someone, and fuck you to the one person that thinks it’s super easy to do so.

I’m 30. This started when I was 14. I spent summers with the family, and he always found a way to trap me. I would pretend that I was asleep, and I would “tense up”, but he’d do everything in his power, including (not limited to) using other objects to hurt me.

My father and I weren’t close for many years, we’ve only come back into each others lives since my mom passed away (about 4 years ago). It’s not exactly the easiest thing to come clean about, especially since it’s his sisters son. This is upstate NY.)

— watchyourdamnmouth

8. Got drunk and sucked my straight friend’s cock

I drunkenly sucked my straight friend’s dick. He asked me to never tell a soul.

— Socialist7

9. I don’t give a shit about my job

Possibly the most relatable. I don’t care about the company or my work beyond a professional level (I do my work well, because I’m paid, but I’m not working extra for free), I don’t buy into “the mission” at all and the only reason I don’t want the place to go belly up is so I don’t lose my job.

If corporate heard this, it could ruin your life because a lot have bought into/force-feed the delusion that work=life. Hell, I know people who have been clearly shoved out of companies because of this (tech is real bad about it). This isn’t to say that I don’t work hard for my time, but I get paid for 40 hours, I work hard for 40. You expect 60? Pay me and I’ll do it, but I don’t care about the company or “changing the world” so I won’t do it for free.

— brownies_n_barbells

10. Don’t believe in God

I’m an atheist, an ex-Muslim living in a Muslim country. I’ll get lynched to death/tortured/thrown into prison if anyone found out.

— FeedMeFanta

11. Gave my clients happy endings for extra $$$

Back when I was 19, I was a single mom living in a state with no family besides my daughter and I was struggling. I had my massage therapy license and was working at a spa, but I wasn’t making enough to pay my bills.

I would have men come over after my daughter was asleep or I’d bring my massage table over to their place and give them a massage with a happy ending for a decent amount of money.

This was nearly 7 years ago and something I’ve never told anyone. I could lose my massage therapy license if the board ever found out. I’m in better place now and I tell myself I did what I needed to make sure my daughter was taken care of, but I’m still not proud of what I did.

— we_all_make_mistakes

12. Gay friend sucked me off

Got super drunk once and my gay friend stayed over. We went to bed and as were chatting his hands started moving and i didn’t stop him. He ended up sucking my dick and I won’t lie it was good.

Thing is as hard as it is to believe I’m very straight. Also our families are really close.

— igotmydicksucked

13. Beat my bully to a pulp

I was picked on A LOT in primary school. One kid (we’ll call him Johnathon) got quite antsy with skipping ropes and used to whip me with them before chasing me with it if I ran away. He also called me some pretty horrible names.

When I was 10 years old, the bullying was relentless and spread to multiple people bullying me. If I told the school, they would tell off the bullies, but the behaviour would still continue. So I decided to take matters into my own hands.

As Johnathan came charging towards me with his friends, ready to start ‘whipping’ (for lack of a better word), I stood rigid with a plastic tennis racket, and with all of my anger, spun in one complete circle.

I didn’t expect to move so quickly, nor for the racket to hit anything (I was quite weird and had poor hand-eye co-ordination when I was young), but the racket slammed straight to the side of his face, causing him to bleed quite heavily. He had to go home that day. I’m 17 now, and I’ve seen him a couple of times since. His head healed, but he sustained minor, temporary brain damage because of it. Prior to me “reuniting” with him, I genuinely thought I had killed him. I still hate how I caused all of this damage to him.

Johnathan’s friends were simply too scared to tell the teacher of what I did, for fear of how I’d react. Up until this point, I’d been intelligent, quiet and secluded. When I suddenly snapped and attacked, it came as a huge shock to them. They (mostly) stopped talking to me as well.

People may tell me to try and reconcile with him, but the truth is that I will never, ever forgive him for the crap he put me through for 2 years.

— Fractite

14. I stopped wearing my hijab

I secretly take off my hijab.

On social media I wear the hijab. In front of all my parents, other family, most of my friends, I wear a hijab. Here’s my story: When I graduated two years ago I decided to look for a job, and I wasn’t able to land anything. I came up with the the idea to start interviewing without wearing one, and once I get an offer I’d start wearing it again. I ended up getting two great job offers (which made me really sad that my theory of taking it off and easily finding a job was true). I took one and haven’t worn it to work at all. I don’t know what happened in the mix of things. I guess I started to like the attention men gave me and I actually felt like I belonged/normal with my peers. It was a feeling I’ve never felt. Everyone started treating me different, as if I was worth speaking to. I don’t get weird looks anymore, I don’t get asked weird questions.

I’m too afraid to tell my parents about it because of disappointment and I’m even more afraid of the Muslim community finding out. Bullying and talking shit happens a lot to girls who “take it off”. I wear it to family functions, and when I’m at a place where I know I can run into someone I know.

So yes in essence I guess I am living a double life. Say what you want I’m ok for now living like this. I keep changing my mind on what I permanent want to do.

— throwaway_918274

15. Dicked a famous man

I fucked a guy that turned out to be pretty high up in politics, specifically national security… and married. Now he keeps talking about how much he wants to visit me and be with me, and how unhappy he is in his marriage.

Best case scenario: Not much happens, we just kinda stay penpals.

Worst case scenario: It gets out, it’s in the tabloids, his wife comes after me (or sends someone), he twists it into my fault, and I essentially get Monica Lewinski-ed, assaulted, or there’s an unfortunate “disappearance.”

Kids, don’t make the mistake of thinking your dick knows best. It doesn’t.

— Cesarsaladinmyarmpit

16. Gay husband left me

I let myself marry and then be left by a very sexually confused man. We had two children together, but sex with him was like…dry toast. Having limited sexual experience before him, I just assumed this was normal. Looking back, he mentioned thinking about men while we dated. I brushed it off. Three months after he finally left me and our daughters, I turned on a tablet he used to use and found his Google account still logged in. His Google photos account was photos of him with men in various sex acts.

I can’t ever tell anyone about this. So many people thought we were the perfect couple with a beautiful family. My self-esteem suffered so bad because he’d rarely touch me and I assumed it was me. I’m so tired of the guilt I receive from other people insinuating that I could have done more to save my marriage for the girl’s sake.

I’m trying to get my life together now. I’m 31, heathy and in good shape, but I spent almost 10 years being a devoted stay at home mother and wife to a man with many dark secrets and now I have to learn how to do everything all over again. No career experience. Two years of college. Thankfully I have no debt and two beautiful daughters.

I just wish that people would stop pressuring me about why my marriage ended. Please. I’m finally receiving positive attention from men and knowing what it feels like to be wanted…but if my family or friends knew the truth they’d blame me for overlooking what I did for as long as I did.

— twodogsonegirl

17. I might be a dad

There is a super high possibility that I have a child. A girl I was with, who turned out to be crazy, lied about being on birth control. The times like up almost too good and it looks kind of like me. Since then she has been married and her and her husband seem happy together so I’ve never worried about it.

— prisoner216 TC mark

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