Looking back at my 18-year-old self who was considering this option, I wish I could give myself a bit of advice.
One single sentence motivates me to work harder than ever before: “I’m proud of you.”
You need to regenerate, and however you decide to do that is your choice.
It’s completely normal to take time to understand the company you’re with and to learn their pace.
No one wants to be around all of the lovey dovey couples while having to be by themselves. Don’t do this because it is a really crappy thing to do to someone.
Maybe I am just a grudge holder, but I think it is extremely important to acknowledge toxic people and know when, and how, to escape before the Final Friend Shit Show has its grand finale.