But What If I’m The Crazy One?

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There have been countless failed flings and relationships. One person after another that just seems to not work out. It’s like you draw the crazy, the assholes and the ones that continue to play you and screw you over time and time again. Why can’t you just make it work with someone? Why does it have to be so complicated to find someone that is able to give you what you need and make you happy? Why is it that you can’t seem to find your happy ending in the way so many people around you have?

It gets you thinking. It really makes you wonder what it is that continues to go wrong. How is it that someone who is unable to give your all to someone, fight for them and want nothing but to support them and make them better, always lead to the dreaded ending that you never saw coming?

It’s like no matter how many times you start to think someone is different and they are going to be the one that stays, something happens. All of a sudden this person becomes like the rest and you have to say goodbye to someone, yet again. Once again you are left needing to start over again with someone, let them in again and find a way to try and have hope that maybe, just maybe this time will be different.

You really start to get discouraged. You can’t seem to figure out what it is that everyone you attract ends up being the same. Your friends joke around with you that this is your type and just the kind of person you fall for. But how could that be? How could you purposely be drawn to all the wrong people?

So you start to wonder. It keeps you up at night thinking if this may not actually be the people that that you date, but instead the problem could be deeper than that. It gets you wondering that instead of them, the problem may actually be you. What if it’s you that constantly pushes people away? What if it’s you that is the reason that these flings and relationships keep failing?

What if it’s you that is the crazy one?

What if… The thought, feeling and question that constantly keeps your mind racing. You start to get down yourself, discouraged and are left feeling pretty down. What if you are too overpowering, too strong, too independent or too passionate?

What if it’s the qualities about yourself that makes you hard to love? What if it’s these traits that make you hard to love but easy to leave? Could that realty be?

Of course not. These are the beautiful parts that make you who you are. These are the quirks that are going to make someone fall madly in love with you some day. These are the things that will help you to get your happy ending.

These are the amazing parts that make you who you are. These are the things that are perfect, just the way that they are. TC mark

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