The Moments I Knew I Was Falling For You

i.

In the weeks before we became a “we,” when we were still circling each other and trying to figure out whether our feelings were mutual, I knew. We were at a bar on the Upper West Side for a mutual friend’s birthday. Our group was more than a few pitchers deep and multiple tequila shots had been taken; the night was beginning to go hazy at the edges. I was talking to someone when you came over and kissed me on the forehead, soft and simple, like you’d been doing it for years. It was the smallest moment — a blip in the casual composure we had carefully weaved — but I knew. I knew I wanted to watch that moment ripple out endlessly.

ii.

When my best friend came to visit and you spent the weekend getting to know her — the way you two fell into a natural rapport while watching Game of Thrones and drinking beers at the bar and singing awful nostalgia-laden music at 3 am. Later, she told me that you two mostly talked about me, but the image of you laughing together felt like spring blooming in my chest.

iii.

It was a random Saturday morning during one of my visits to Jersey. As usual, I had claimed most of the bed and you had stolen almost all the blanket. When I rolled over and looked at you, I knew. I knew I wanted to wake up next to you every morning — feeling your warm body curled around me — wondering if the sun had risen just for us.

iv.

I knew when we spent the morning sipping coffee and silently reading the newspaper; when we fell asleep together, your head tucked in my lap, while watching the Mets game; when you told me I make you the happiest you’ve ever been; when we stole a private moment on the dock at your lake house; when you woke me up by saying “good morning beautiful;” when you looked at me the way I’ve always wanted to be looked at.

v.

And now, while writing this, I know. Even when you’re seventy miles away and I’m constantly counting the sunsets until I see you again, I know. I know what it feels like to miss you like a phantom limb, to ache for the melody of your voice, to crave your touch like an addict. I know every time I round my lips around your name; every time your hands find a haven in mine; every time my eyes go soft just looking at you.

Now, because I finally understand that falling means trusting someone enough to catch you. TC mark

image – nattu

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    Reblogged this on Another Random Girl and commented:
    This line.. “I was talking to someone when you came over and kissed me on the forehead, soft and simple, like you’d been doing it for years. It was the smallest moment — a blip in the casual composure we had carefully weaved — but I knew. I knew I wanted to watch that moment ripple out endlessly.” then i died and turned into marshmallow.

    I just wish when i fall in love I know the exact moment i fell. :)

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    I adore the details.

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    Reblogged this on 58 Day Dreams and commented:
    This is very sweet. We hear so many bad stories, but this one makes my heart feel light.

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