What It Feels Like To Love The Right Guy At The Wrong Time

I never thought I’d be able to say that you were the one who got away. It was magic from the moment we met and you seemed as close to perfect as a guy could get. After just a few days together, I knew something was different about you. You lived so freely and did everything with a passion I had never seen before. I always viewed you in a romantic sense, but I also looked up to you, too. You had something I wanted and as the days went by, I began to notice what that something was: you genuinely loved life for what it was and chose to see the good in every single moment.

Things weren’t exactly easy for you, but you didn’t let that affect how you viewed the world. Your carefree attitude balanced my control-freak tendencies and you taught me to not worry. You showed me what it meant to truly live and honestly, you taught me to love again. I fell in love with you more quickly than I ever admitted but I couldn’t help it. For the first time in my 24 years, I could actually picture myself with someone in the future. That someone was you. I genuinely loved you and we weren’t supposed to breakup.

But life got in the way. I was constantly stressed at work and you had so many creative projects going on. It became harder and harder to find time to spend together and I could feel us drifting apart. I didn’t want to admit that something had changed, but soon, I couldn’t ignore it. Finally, we called it quits before we grew to hate each other and vowed to stay friends.

Fast forward six months and we’re still on good terms. I’m so thankful for that but if I’m being honest; I miss you every single day. I miss that fire and zest for life. I miss talking to you for hours on end about nothing and everything, all at once. I miss our adventures and I miss lazy days in bed. But as much as I miss you, I know that right now, we’re better apart.

You’re pursuing exactly what you wanted to and I am so proud of you for that. And me? Well, you taught me to live a more authentic and passionate life and I am genuinely happy every single day. You taught me to love life for what it was in the moment and to stop wishing it away. You showed me how to live beyond “what ifs” and to make things happen for myself. But more importantly, you taught me that love still exists, even if we never could get the timing right.

Someday I do hope we can find our way back to each other, but for right now, I’m thankful to have fallen in love with the right guy, even if it was at the wrong time.