If You Hadn’t Broke My Heart, I Wouldn’t Be Who I Am Today

Thank you for making me chase after your “love,” because while I was searching for love from you, I ended up finding that love within myself.

Thank you for the sleepless nights and the hours upon hours I spent begging for my mind to stop racing, because I finally learned to stop begging and began dropping to my knees in prayer.

Thank you for constantly making me ask myself “why me?” because I learned things don’t happen to me, they happen for me.

Thank you for saving all of those nudes from those you didn’t even care to get to know, because after all those hours I spent in the mirror looking at myself differently, I discovered true beauty is something that can only be found within.

Thank you for only showing up when it was convenient for you, because I learned to stop waiting around, day after day, for something that was obviously just a dream and started running towards the things I desire and made them my reality.

Thank you for all the messages you left unanswered, because instead of searching for answers from you, I began searching for my answers from the word of God.

Thank you for not checking in on me when I felt like I was barely hanging on, because I actually gave God the chance to finally rescue me.

And even though you were never really mine, I just want to thank you for leading me straight to the one who will never leave nor forsake me.

You changed my life, and though it almost killed me, without you I wouldn’t be who I am today — and for that, I am so thankful for you.