I’m Worth So Much More Than The Games You Play

woman looking down standing outside
Sorin Sîrbu

Have you ever been in a relationship? More importantly, do you understand the concept of respect and treating people the way you want to be treated? You don’t even need to answer because I already know that you don’t.

You say “I’m not good at this stuff” or “I’m just not emotional.” There’s a difference between not being emotional and being a complete douchebag. And another thing…I’ve been through way too much to have to sit here and teach you about the basic fundamentals of respect and honesty.

Everything you say is a bunch of shit. You and I both know that. You wanted me around while you were here as someone to pass the time with. That may be all you deserve or think that’s all you deserve, but I know my worth. I know what I bring to the table and it’s a hell of a lot more than passing time.

What kind of person intentionally fucks with someone’s mind? What kind of person blatantly ignores someone because they “don’t want to be bothered”? Do you think I actually enjoyed your misery when you were down and out?

Even though most of what you were going through was your own fault, I was still by your side. I didn’t ignore you when you “needed” me. Oh, that’s because I have empathy and a conscience. I would actually feel bad about not being there for someone.

Tell me this…what kind of human being uses someone’s memory loss to manipulate a situation? Oh, I know…a sociopathic, narcissistic asshole is someone who does that. Don’t you find it so sad that you actually had to use my memory issues to cover up how shitty of a person you are? You’re a sad excuse of a “man”. More like a sad excuse of a human being.

You took advantage of my kindness and what I was going through because you’re a selfish asshole. You humiliated me. You embarrassed me. You played me for a fool and yet, I am the one that has to change?

Newsflash kid, you can only fuck with someone so much til they get fed up and stop taking your bullshit. You act as if I had a gun to your head and saying you have to be with me or else. Please…don’t let the door hit you on the way out.

The games you played with me are just not okay. I’m not here to serve and appease you. I’ve been through hell and back to get to where I am today and NO ONE will be given the chance to take that away from me. 

Have you ever fought so hard to be a better person after realizing you’ve been pretty awful to some people? I didn’t think so because people who have fought unimaginable battles know what respect is and treat others how they would want to be treated.

The battles I have overcome you would have ran away from just like you run from everything else in your life. The more you run, the more shit you’ll end up having to face in the end.

You’ll continue to be lonely and miserable with random one night stands. And one day you’ll think of everything I’m saying and wish you would have listened when you had the chance. Good luck. TC mark

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