I Will Miss You

I will miss you fleetingly, for a second every now and then, in a moment of weakness or fragility. I will think about how good it felt, like an evanescent, elusive dream. Until I recall that was exactly why it collapsed. It never endures.

I will miss you achingly, until every little nerve inside of me sets itself on fire and wants to break apart and escape from the confines of this body to find you, because honestly, you were the glue. I will tremble and shake and realize with pain, with tears in my eyes. I will let it go. I will realize that it has turned into a torrential downpour, and like a dam bursting, I will not be able to control it. I will feel the barely-repaired pieces of my heart break again.

I will miss you with a strange sense of detachment. It will be at times when I am doing nothing, and suddenly you will make your presence felt throughout me. Maybe it will be that I still haven’t wrapped my head around your absence. I will know that it was for the best, but I will still wonder as to how my life would have been if things had been different.

I will miss you with bitterness, with darkness and anger I did not know I possessed. I will think of you in my darkest hour and will curse you for everything that is currently going wrong in my life and everything that will go wrong. I will imagine a life where you and I never collide and everything remains picture perfect. I will hate you for tainting the memories of a time never coming back.

I will miss you with a song on my heart. Reminiscing about our moments, so light and happy, I will find them full of an easy gaiety I found with no one else. I will know that we have limited time together so I’ll do my best to make the most of it. I will, at the same time, be afraid to give my all to you. You will leave soon enough, so I hope you will not hold it against me.

I will miss you even though you’re gonna be back. Those little habits of yours which annoy me to no end will be the things I miss the most. I will wait eagerly for your return. It will be filled with sweet anticipation.

I will miss you because you were once a part of my life, because you’re not here anymore and because it hurts. TC mark

 

image – Yury Prokopenko

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    Your and my surname :) Great article!

  • http://twitter.com/vickstahs Vicky Nguyen (@vickstahs)

    so beautiful. thank you.

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  • http://twitter.com/mitzyredmango Mitzy (@mitzyredmango)

    Real pain. It hurts.

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    :'(

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  • guest

    this is AMAZING wow. please write more. i cant really believe this is your only article. DSKJFHJSG FEELINGS.

  • Psychedilio

    “I will miss you because you were once a part of my life, because you’re not here anymore and because it hurts.”

    Truth.

  • Emily

    I didn’t read the article, but I suppose the title is accurate of how we’d feel for certain people every now and then.

  • http://notestix.tumblr.com Notestix

    Every sentence is relatable. No doubt one of the best articles. Thank you so, so much.

  • http://twitter.com/janinegenious Janine M. (@janinegenious)

    Is this all abou the same person or are you talking about different people? I got confused with the last two paragraphs. So he’ll be back, in your mind/memories only, is that it? Sorry it’s a bit early on my part of the world now and I’ve just woken up.

    • http://gravatar.com/brindazasha11 Brinda

      It’s about how I miss so many people, all in different ways

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  • http://twitter.com/philosolaktor Lakshitha (@philosolaktor)

    Is it weird to be missing someone who I never actually had anything significant with because situations presented themselves and it was just impossible to be something together?

    • winnie

      I used to feel the same way about someone. Sometimes you miss an idea or the possibility of an idea. But just because something didn’t work out doesn’t mean it can’t in the future sometime…maybe, especially if you want it to.

      This is a beautiful piece of writing. I like how it addresses the voids different people fill for us :)

  • sophiaciocca

    Ohhh, I loved this. I agree so much, in the most visceral way possible.

  • Chris Marie

    I will miss you even though you’re not going to be back.

    Even though I’m not sure why I have to miss someone who doesn’t even remember me.

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