I wanted to let you know that everything will be okay. Maybe not today, but one day. I promise. You just need to look back over all the unfortunate things that have happened to you before. You are still standing. You will continue standing. Your story goes on.
I know it feels like you’re being broken apart, and perhaps, you are. That feeling won’t last forever. It hurts now but one day, you will wake up and it will be less.
It will be less and less until there is no pain at all.
There will be memories, sure. They feel terrible now. I know. But maybe, on a rainy Tuesday, you will look back on them and they will just be memories. They won’t be tinged with sadness or pain, they will just be.
I know you feel you are not entitled to feel this way. Everyone says it should hurt less by now or to get over it.
Heart, they are not you.
Every person heals in a different way and pace. Whether you know it or not, you are healing. Second by second, a small crack mends back together. This is how you feel right now. And guess what? It’s okay. You hear me? It’s okay. You can feel however you want and take as long as you want. This is your process. You felt deeply. You cared deeply.
It hurts because it mattered.
It’s okay. Take your time.
Finally, I want to let you know you will feel again. It may not feel like it now. You may feel sad, alone, and not like yourself. But…oh, my friend, you will flutter, you will feel joy, wonder, love, bewilderment, all of it. You still possess the capabilities and it will come crashing down on you again; maybe not in June or July but this time in December. You may be hurt again, but you are a conqueror, not a coward.
So, don’t let this jade you.
Don’t let this make you frightened. That is when they win. You are fearless and have overcome everything in your path before this. It hurts now but you will be better for it.
Remember this, when you feel you will never recover. My dear heart, you will continue to beat. Your story doesn’t end here.