Here we are, so many years down the road and I can’t help but think of what could have happened if we had never met that day.
The truth is, I would have saved myself so much heartache, anxiety and hurt had I not met you at all.
“I’ve heard it said, that people come into your life for a reason, bringing something we must learn.”
But you are a lesson that I wish I didn’t have to learn; one I wouldn’t wish for anyone to learn.
You came into my life at the perfect moment, for you; I was a naive little girl, who was desperately wanting a Prince Charming to come and save her from her life.
I had been so happy and unknowing that the “Prince” standing in front of me would cause me the biggest heartbreak and lead to my downhill spiral once he was done playing his games.
The worst thing was that you played me so perfectly, like a virtuoso. Your actions, touches and words singing to me like the perfect song.
I spent so much time contemplating if you were ever worth the love and effort I gave you… you weren’t. I didn’t deserve to be with someone who only wanted to use me and drain me of everything I had and more.
You never deserved my love, because I love without limits and love without bounds; where you love only yourself and I just gave you the ego boost you were desperately needing to spread your wings further and leave me in your wake.
I should have seen it coming, but you were so charming and the perfect, manipulating liar, and it’s only now that I look back at all the lies you’ve ever told me and it’s crystal clear that you began to believe them yourself, the more you told them.
Truth is, if I could go back to that night that I met you and change it all, I would in a heartbeat; because love is not supposed to leave you in your darkest hour or broken. It’s supposed to bring you so much joy and happiness, none of which you ever brought me in our time together.
All you ever brought me in our time together was hurt, anguish, despair and loneliness. None of which I care to repeat.
I know you may look at this and think I’m being petty, but I’m not. I value the lesson you taught me, I learned what to look out for when people come into my life.
I just wish I hadn’t spent so much time and energy trying to make it work, when you were the captain and we were the titanic, we were always destined to sink!