Man Shoots Himself at Harvard, Leaves suicidenote.info

Last Saturday a man named Mitchell Heisman shot himself in Harvard Yard. A group of high school students on a tour of the campus were apparently close by. And aside from his relatively sensational suicide, he left a pretty intense suicide note at suicidenote.info.

If you were to download the note, you’d get a 1,905 page PDF that’s prefaced by the Socrates quote:

Ordinary people seem not to realize that those who really apply themselves in the right way to philosophy are directly and of their own accord preparing themselves for dying and death. If this is true, and they have actually been looking forward to death all their lives, it would of course be absurd to be troubled when the thing comes for which they have so long been preparing and looking forward.

Scroll through the massive document and you’ll find chapters such as “God is Technology,” “The Seditious Genius of the Spiritual Penis of Jesus,” (was he going for a tongue-twister there?) and “Creating God and the Evolution of Genetic Suicide.”

From the looks of it, Heisman may have expected the note to become a widely used college textbook. I’m a bit too busy to read the entire thing, but the The Harvard Crimson described it as “a sprawling series of arguments that touch upon historical, religious, and nihilist themes.” Gawker’s reported that it has “a lot of creepy stuff about cyborgs and the Holocaust and overcoming our ‘Will to Live.'”

Of the note, his mom said to the Crimson, “He didn’t show me that this was at all what he had in his mind. All I knew was he was finishing his book and he was happy about that.” Of his unexpected passing, she added, “I expected him to come here to help me move, which I am in the process of. I expected him to come back in October. He really was non-committal.”

Damn. TC mark

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  • http://htmlgiant.com/author/reynard reynard

    gnarly

  • http://twitter.com/rislynsey christopher lynsey

    I am more shocked by the fact suicidenote.info exits.

    • http://twitter.com/MollyWest12th Molly Oswaks

      Yeah. Word.

    • michael

      lol

  • stephen_tully_dierks

    that quote from his mom is pretty sad.

    • Brandon

      yeah

  • tao

    jesus

  • http://staugustine2.wordpress.com/ STaugustine

    Zizek's first victim.

  • a polar bear

    david foster wallace syndrome

    • http://twitter.com/MollyWest12th Molly Oswaks

      Wow. You're going to make David Foster Wallace the poster-child for suicide? Really?

      • a polar bear

        who would you prefer be the poster-child for suicidal writers? hemingway?

  • http://twitter.com/rislynsey christopher lynsey

    I read his suicide note last night. It was OK.

    • a polar bear

      write a 'tc review' of it

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  • PBF

    Here's what I wrote on him:

    Mitchell Heisman, aged 35, died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound on September 18, 2010 at approximately 11 a.m., EDT on the steps of the Memorial Church of Harvard University. He had arranged for a 1,905 page rambling, obsessive, and mostly incoherent book/suicide note to be mailed to 400 people five hours after his death. He was a complete nobody, living on a small inheritance and working at bookstores around Boston while working on his Suicide Note, in which he showed his complete misunderstanding of history, religion, politics, and science while doing his best to convince himself that suicide is alternately or both rational and irrelevant. His only formal tertiary education was a psychology degree from SUNY Albany. His work does not even deserve refutation point by point, as all his basic assumptions are either wrong, unproven, or unprovable. Also complicating things is the length of the “note” itself, which no one will seriously read, but its length is formidable enough to bury his suicidal motives in four reams of paper and make people wonder, when in fact, he committed suicide because he was a furious, depressed loner. In the “article,” or rather collection of madness below, I have attempted to copy Heisman's style as an attempt at humor, which probably won't work for everyone. Read what you think is funny, and ignore the rest, since it is almost but not quite as incoherent as Heisman's magnum opus. Chances are, you've already found out what you need to know.

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    […] Though this is not the first time something like this has been written, it is nevertheless a fascinating, important look at humanity, life, and death. It is the story of a man who confronted the realities that many of us avoid every day, and who made his own decision — for better or for worse. […]

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