Find The Motivation To Make It Through Recovery
By Bianca Hayes
I was so lost
Reliving all my pain each day
Replaying it like a horror movie in my head
Drinking to quiet the din of my mind
Allowing myself to stay in a destructive cycle and never seeing a way out
Motivation
It can move us to be better
It can be sneaky and quiet
Hiding in the back of our minds
Moving our thinking into mindsets and situations that cause us pain
Uncovering these motivations
What is pushing you
In a positive and negative way
Shows you all aspects of yourself
We walk around every day
Thinking all the decisions we make are for our best interests
Motivated by god intentions
But so many have underlying emotions
Stress
Fear
Anxiety
Pain
It’s hard to look at yourself and see what has influenced your choices.
Once you do you can see who is in control
Who is in the driver’s seat
I want to change how we think about recovery
This current model
The model where you’re stuck in a house of mirrors
Constantly faced with each moment you regret
Labelling yourself broken each day
Defining your life by your past
I want to change that narrative
Take back the reins
And redefine what our lives can be
Our past needs recognition
It needs to be acknowledged
But it doesn’t need to keep defining us.