To The Boys Who Have Let Me Go (And The Man Who Never Will)

To the boys who have let me go…

Thank you, thank you for showing me how I shouldn’t be treated. Thank you for helping me to see early on that I deserve more than what you could give me. Because of all of you, I now know that love is not easy to come by. That when I find love, it will be a feeling and an action wrapped into one, and that it will be mutual.

Yes, relationships are going to be messy and unorganized. But they shouldn’t feel like a burden or as if I am unable to breathe. Thank you boys for either cracking my heart, or breaking it. Whether you chipped my heart or broke it would depend on which boy you are and definitely how hard I fell for you. I thank you for breaking my heart because you have helped me realize I should never settle for less than I deserve. I thank you for breaking my heart because you have given the man who will hold me, unlike you did, something to put back together.

I want to say a final thank you to you all because if you never broke my heart, I would still be unaware of the fact that I should never settle but that I should strive for a love that has no boundaries from a man that is willing to go the same distance.

To the man who will hold me tight…

Hello (: I have yet to meet you, or maybe I have and just don’t know it. Thank you for treating me the way I should be treated. Thank you for being the man who gets along with my mom and dad. Thank you for dealing with my crazy but loving family, and all of the many parties and gatherings where you stand by my side.

I cannot thank you enough for dealing with all of my insecurities and burdens that I may bring to the table and allowing me to embrace yours. Thank you for loving me through the days where I can’t stop smiling or laughing but especially for loving me on my depressed days where I don’t want to get out of bed. Thank you for being you and loving me as I am. For truly caring about my well-being and signing up to be by my side on this roller coaster we call life.

But most importantly, thank you for making me feel like I can breathe. As if I was finally able to come up for a breath of fresh air after being held down for so long. I will love you as much, if not more, than you love me. Every day I will fall deeper and deeper in love with you. I Thank you for helping me not be afraid to fall and making sure I know that you will always be there to catch me. I’ll hold you just as tight as you will hold me. As they say, through thick and thin, I’ll be by your side. So, thank you for being by mine.