You Won’t Fall For Me If You Know What’s Good For You

Clem Onojeghuo
Clem Onojeghuo

Don’t fall for me if you know what’s good for you, I’m telling you right now. I’ll only end up breaking your heart. It’s happened too many times to count and I don’t want to add another name to the list.

I already know how it’s going to end. I’ll tell myself to give you a chance, I’ll tell myself that maybe things will be different this time, but it won’t be. It’s always the same with me. I try to open my heart but the walls are too thick. The cage guarding my heart won’t budge. And the harder you try to love me and fit into my life the faster I’ll push you away.

I’ve got too many miles left to travel on this earth alone before I can live comfortably with someone else in my life. I’m just not built to love now, I’m not ready to fall yet.

I’m good at pushing people away, maybe a little too good. It’s my safety, it’s how I protect myself. It’s not something I’m necessarily proud of, but it’s something I can’t help.

I’m like a hurricane; I come into your life, only to stay for a short period of time before I destroy everything in my path on the way out the door.

I don’t mean to hurt you, but I know it will happen sooner or later. I’ve been in the position to many times and it never gets easier.

Love is something I struggle with. It’s something I’ve never been able to get a good grip on. I do better on my own, I do better without anyone by my side because once there’s someone by my side there’s too much pressure. There’s too many things that can go wrong. There’s too many questions and possibilities and room for mistakes.

I’d never intentionally hurt you, or anyone, but when it comes to falling for someone it’s inevitable that you will disappointed. I’m too independent. I push and I shove, I try so hard to turn you off so that I don’t have to be the one who ends things, but it never works out in my favor. It ends up with hard feelings and brokenness.

The truth is the less you want people the more they want you back, the more they crave your attention because the one who cares less is always the one with the most control.

So you won’t fall for me if you know what’s good for you. You will keep your distance, you’ll let me go and you’ll always just have to wonder what we could have been.

I’m meant to be alone, I’m not ready to settle. I’m not ready to share my life with someone. I’m not ready to have another half.

Most have roots where I’ve got wings.

I’ve still got miles left to go on my own, new towns to call my own and a few hearts left to break.

My hearts not ready to settle, it’s not ready for love just yet.

Don’t put your heart in my hand, don’t look at me for love, don’t think I can give you want you want because I’m telling you right now that I’m no good for you. I don’t know if I’ll ever be good enough for you.

So don’t fall for me if you know what’s good for you. TC mark

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