I Want To Know What It Feels Like To Be Loved Completely By You

Hold me in your arms and tell me you love me, but also mean it.

Don’t say it when we’re entangled between the sheets in my bed together. Don’t say it when you’ve had one too many drinks. Don’t say it when you’re heart is shattered and you’re trying to cover up the brokenness inside your chest.

Say it when you mean it because I can’t take another let down and another broken heart.

I want to know what it feels like to be loved completely.

I know what the half-hearted, half-invested love feels like. It’s a feeling I’ve come to know too well, one that I’m always trying to outrun, but can never get away from fast enough.

I don’t want to worry about someone walking out on my life anymore; I don’t want to feel like I’m not lovable or not good enough anymore.

All I want is you to stay when everyone else always leaves.

I want to look in your eyes and see forever. I want the inside jokes and the Sunday mornings together. I want the cute photos and to know that when I have a crappy day that you’ll be who I come home to. I want all the good, romanticized parts of a relationship, but I also want all the bad.

I want the bad because the bad is what makes it real.

The bad is what brings you together or spreads you worlds apart.

I want the awkward and semi-annoying family gatherings. I want the fights and to deal with the annoying qualities you posses. I want to be angry with you and question everything. I want to disagree with you and tell you how I can’t stand you.

I want the good, the bad and the ugly because when I say I want to be loved completely, I mean I want to love completely. I want the real deal, the flaws and the unfiltered realities of a relationship. I don’t want a relationship with no meaning and depth. I don’t want a relationship where things fall apart as soon as they get tough.

I want the real thing.

I want the bad just as much as I want the good because when we fight I want to work through the problems with you. When we disagree I want to talk it out and come to a compromise that we can both agree on. I want to work on growing together and figuring out this life together.

I want to fight it out with you and not have you walk away, I want to fight it out with you and still have you there the next day.

I want to have a real love where we don’t give up on each other when things get hard.

After we fight it out I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me you love me, and I want you to mean it.

I want to know what that feels like.

I want to know what it feels like to look someone in the eyes and know they’re not going to leave.

I want to know what forever feels like.