I Can’t Help But Wonder If She Loves You Like I Loved You

IB Wira Dyatmika
IB Wira Dyatmika

I wonder if she knows you used to tell me I was your world, that you’d never love anyone like you loved me or that you couldn’t live without me.

I wonder if she knows that.

And I wonder if she knows you like I knew you.

With us there were no limits, there were no boundaries and nothing to be embarrassed about. I didn’t know it was possible to love someone with such depth that we loved.

I wonder if she knows you like I used to. I wonder if you’re as comfortable around each other as we used to be.

I wonder if she loves you like I used to.

God, I hope she does.

I hope she loves the gap between your front teeth and your goofy smile. I hope she loves how deeply you care about your relationships and how much you think of her. I hope she loves how kind and honest you are. I hope she loves you to the depth I loved you, maybe even more.

Because even though we never worked out I still want you to find someone who flips your world upside down in the best way possible.

And from the looks of it I know you’ve found her, I’ve heard the stories and seen the pictures. I truly hope you’re happy with her, but I still can’t help but wonder if she knows you like I knew you.

I also can’t help but wonder if you’ve changed. I wonder how different you are now with her than you were with me.

With me we were young, we were two kids in love. With me we did all the things we weren’t supposed to do, we’d go sneak off in the middle of the night and find ourselves almost getting caught one too many times.

When we loved we had a type of innocence, a shield that made us feel like we were two kids in love with nothing stopping us or slowing us down. When we loved it was us against the world and that feeling was beautiful.

We didn’t know what we were doing but we thought we had it all figured out. We loved with hearts that burned like wildfires, but eventually that love burnt out.

I wonder if she loves you like that, I wonder if she looks at you after all this time and still feels happiness inside of her. I wonder if she looks at you and thinks forever, like I used to do.

We might have been young, but I know what love is and I know I experienced it with you.

Now I just can’t help but wonder if she loves you like I loved you. TC mark

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