Don’t keep me up at night tossing and turning wondering where you are and why you haven’t called. If you know me at all you know I can’t handle that, just like every other person in the world.
Don’t leave me questioning where we stand and if you’re invested in me or not. Don’t play with my heart I don’t know how much more it can take.
I don’t want the confused mornings after a great night wondering if things are ever going to progress between us. Especially when I’m certain you’re what I want, but it always seems you don’t know what you want, even when you try so hard to convince me that it’s me.
But I know you’re not so sure. I know you like me when you like me, but you also love to keep me guessing.
Guessing hurts, its cruel and I don’t like it. I’ve never been a fan of games and the chase isn’t really my style. But I know it’s my fault for staying. It’s my fault for sticking around hoping we can turn whatever it is we’re doing into something more.
I can’t find it in myself to give up on you yet because I know part of you really wants to be there with me and pour your feelings out. I can hear it when you talk to me after a long day by the sincerity in your voice and I can see it in your eyes when you confide in me. I see the happiness you feel when you’re with me, but there’s something that still makes me uncertain.
Maybe I’m reading into this too much, I have a bad habit of overthinking, but there is something real between us and I can feel it. I just wish maybe you could feel it, too.
I want to be the one you want to come home to at the end of a long day to help ease your troubles away. I want to be the one you want to hop on a plane with and travel to different countries with. I want to be the one you want to experience your ordinary moments with and I want to be able to turn those ordinary moments into extraordinary memories.
I want you to tell me how you’re feeling, unfiltered. I want to know the thoughts running through your mind whether it’s 2 AM or 2 PM. I want to know how if you want me around because I want to fully invest into this relationship, but I’m still not convinced you do.
I want you to tell me if I’m not what you want, I want you to tell me if you’re just keeping me around until someone better comes along or maybe I’m here to occupy your mind when you’re bored.
Or maybe you really do love me, maybe you do care and you do want all the same things I want.
Either way, what I ultimately want is honesty and open communication.
Because I’ll never know unless you tell me, so please don’t keep me guessing anymore. Please don’t be afraid to talk to me about what is running through your mind because I can’t take any more confusion.
It’s no secret I want you, but I only want to be in your life if you want me, too.