It’s challenging right now, seeing all your friends post pictures of being reunited while you watch from behind your computer screen that you spend all your time on either looking for work or working from.
You know how excited they are right now and you wish you could be joining them in the fun. You wish you could be walking back through the bar doors you spent so many nights dancing in and drinking to forget your troubles.
You wish you could be moving back into your house with your roommates because you guys had the time of your lives together spending countless hours laughing and talking about everything under the sun. You spent your good and bad, happy and sad moments with them under your roof. You shared so many moments and now you know you’ll never get those moments back.
You had some of the best moments of your life in that college town with a crappy apartment and cheap bars, and it’s finally hitting you, you’re never going back.
At least not for school, the house you lived in is no longer yours. The professors you had are no longer there to teach you. The team you played on will continue to play without you, replacing you with new, younger athletes.
Even if you go back now it won’t be the same. You won’t have all your friends there, you won’t have your schedule with your classes and your professors, you won’t have your clubs or your job. It won’t be the same and it sucks, but it’s not the same because you’re no longer the same person you were when you walked across the stage. You’re a different person, even if you don’t realize it, part of you ached for graduation while the other part wanted so badly to hold on.
It’s hard to grasp the concept that someone new will come along and replace you, replace the footprints you left behind and fill the empty spaces you left open.
I’ve had a difficult time adjusting to no longer being in college, no longer going back to be with the people who I love the most, and I keep being reminded that college was a good part of my life, but it wasn’t my whole life. As good as it was, there will be better days ahead.
I’m trying to breakup with my memories of college, instead of feeling sad about not returning I’m instead trying to remember how lucky I was to have such an incredible experience. I’m trying to remind myself that my friends are still my friends, even if they’re not by my side every minute like they used to be.
Life changes and it doesn’t slow down for anyone, and the only thing you’re left to do is to keep moving forward.
Reminiscing on the past is a good thing, but you can’t live in your memories. You have to accept that things will be good again and you will find new connections and new interests.
It’s hard, it’s so hard to leave behind a life you loved so much, a life you cherished and all the people you spent so much time with, but as much as it sucks that’s life. It’s as simple as that. You have to find it in yourself to let go of what was and accept your current life, it will make you much happier and will stop bringing you down.
College was an amazing time, but now it’s time to move forward on to the rest of your life. It’s time to look forward to the future and prepare for the rest of your life.
Just keep reminding yourself there will be better days ahead.