I’ve never been good with sharing. I’ve always had a bit of a temper. I bite my cuticles, my patience is shit and I really do get hangry. I can get easily annoyed and when I’m in a bad mood it’s hard for me to get out of it. I drink too much, I swear more than I should and I get upset for no reason at all from time to time.
But that’s who I am.
You can either take me or leave me, but I’ll always be me. Don’t try to make me into someone I’m not, don’t try to make me feel like less of a person, and especially don’t try to change me.
When I want something I want all of it. I don’t just want bits and pieces, I want the whole thing. I won’t try to break you down and change you. I won’t try to turn you into the person I want you to be. If I like you, I’ll like all of you for who you are.
I’ve grown to love myself with all my flaws so that I can learn to love others for their flaws.
I know no one is perfect, I know perfect isn’t even a real thing, but I’ve come to terms with accepting my flaws and I know how to love myself through them.
You can take me or leave me because either way I am who I am and I’m fine with or without you.
I won’t mold to you to make you happy, I won’t put your needs before my own when those decisions make me anything but happy. I can’t do that because I can’t break myself in order to get you to love me.
I look the way I look, I think the way I think, I am the way I am and that’s that.
There is no way to dissect me and pull out the pieces you think you could love. I am whole and you get all of me or none of me.
I might not fit into your idea of who I should be and that’s probably because I’m not that person. I’ve got my flaws, just like everyone else, but the thing about mine is I’m not ashamed of them. I’ve come to terms with them, I own them because they are part of me.
Don’t try to change me because I don’t want to be changed. I’m happy with who I am and where I’m at in life and frankly it took me long enough to get here, I don’t want you to come into my life and screw it all up.
If I don’t like something I will work on it, I will change it myself. I will be strong enough to decide what I should be doing in life and if it’s healthy or not for me because I’m the only one who ever has to live with the thoughts in my head. I’m the only one who has to live in my body and be alone with my thoughts, you don’t get to dictate them. You don’t get that power. If I want to change I will make that decision on my own.
You don’t get that power over me, so you can either take me as I am or you can leave me. Either way, I’ll do just fine without you.