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An Open Letter To Myself: Hold Onto Your Vulnerable Heart

I want to let you know that I think you are so brave. I really do. It takes an incredible amount of strength to pour your heart out for others in spite of the possibility of being completely and utterly wrecked by another human in return.

It takes an unbelievable amount of vulnerability to open up your heart completely to another person, whether or not they do the same for you. It is both such a blessing and curse to feel so deeply for others. To continuously crash your heart into a person you feel a deep connection beginning with. Because where does it get you to stay guarded? Where does it get you to hold back your thoughts and feelings? How do you progress your relationships with others if you do not try to get to know them on a deep level?

Fuck being scared of feeling like you are too much, like you are trying too hard, like you should be playing the game in order to win somebody over. Because you get nowhere when you attempt to hold back all of who you are in fear of what somebody else might think.

I want to let you know that I love how much you are. I love that you have the capacity to pour out for others. I love that you want to make genuine connections. I love that you want to find a love that is entirely inspiring and freeing. Because if you hold yourself back, then you are not being all of who I know you are capable of being; you would not be true to your soul.

I love how you do not keep your guard up for long. You do not weigh things out logically before jumping in. You simply feel—you feel everything all at once and want to keep feeling everything in spite of potentially getting hurt. How wonderful of you.

I admire how you want to live your life without regrets and without holding back your endless thoughts and sincerest feelings. Too many people are so afraid of living and are so afraid of rejection, but not you. You would rather feel everything and get rejected instead of holding back your energy for somebody. Do you even know how much strength that takes? Promise me that you will hold onto your vulnerable heart, because I want you to know that you are so rare and do not even realize the impact of that yet.

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I met a boy off of hinge who inspired my life then broke my heart Follow Audre on Instagram or read more articles from Audre on Thought Catalog.

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