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I Won’t Be The Girl Who Asks You To Stay

I’m not going to be the girl who asks you to stay. The girl who cries and clings and makes a scene. You all have seen the movies and heard the songs, except in the real world it never works out.

It’s a hard truth to swallow, but if you wanted to stay, you would have. If you wanted to make this work, we’d be doing it together. A relationship isn’t a one way street, it takes two people willing to fight through the ugly. The fact of the matter is I don’t need you, even if my heart wants you.

I’m not worried about being alone. I have people in my corner that will be there for me. They are my tribe; they love me for who I am, and they’ll be there to support me.

So no, I will not be the girl who asks you to stay. I’m not going to beg for your attention. I’m not going to allow myself to look weak, because I am far from it.

I know my worth. I’m a strong, independent, caring, smart, and fantastic woman. I don’t need to plead for you to see my worth because I can see it. There will come a time that another will step in and love everything you couldn’t. Someone who would never leave me the way you did.

I won’t ask you to stay, because what is the point? We both know that deep down, this is going to happen again, so why not rip off the band-aid now?

Of course I am going to be sad. I’m going to miss the simpler times we had. I’m going to wrestle inside myself about whether or not letting you walk away was the right decision. I’m going to cry, yell, and want to call you up.

But I won’t. I know what that will do in the end—we’ll meet up and the next day I’ll feel hollow inside. You’re going to walk away just like you did before, without missing a beat.

I’m not going to ask you to stay so you can later throw that in my face or brag to your friends that I’m obsessed with you. I won’t give you the satisfaction of being full of yourself. You’ll have to find another story to tell.

However, life goes on. The clock always resets at some point. Eventually you just stop letting the hurt in. If I asked you to stay, I’d only be putting off the inevitable.

I’m not going to be the girl that asks you to stay, because I’m not someone’s #2. I deserve to be someone’s priority.

I’m not going to be the girl who asks you to stay, because I don’t need you to survive. I have a wonderful life outside of us that I can focus on and thrive in and be just fine.

I’m not going to ask you to stay, because you didn’t ask me. I’d rather watch you go and leave than hurt myself even more. I’d rather go through the heartbreak of us ending than linger over what could be.

I won’t be the girl who asks you to stay, because I am not going to settle for less than I deserve.

Hawkeye alumni. Sports enthusiast. Avid reader. Harry Potter expert.

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