It’s emotionally exhausting.
You’re so damn tired of waiting. You wait day and you wait night for him and it’s draining you. At the end of the day you have no energy left for yourself because it’s all been spent on him. Every ounce of your love and thoughts and attention has been drained because he has sucked it out of you.
I hope you never feel this way again. I hope you never feel like you’re not good enough for yourself, much less him. There’s nothing more upsetting than losing yourself in the midst of a battle with someone else.
You deserve the world. You’re strong and capable and you don’t need him to tell you. You have a life and hobbies and other people that will love and support you.
You have yourself.
Look in that mirror every damn day and tell yourself “I love you”. Stop wasting those words on a boy and put them to good use. Invest time in yourself and reap the benefits.
I know. It’s easier said than done. But look at yourself. You’re just waiting. Waiting for a day when he finally puts in the effort. Waiting for a day when he realizes he’s losing his greatest opportunity. But darling, you don’t need to wait. You have yourself and your courage and your mind, and you don’t need that boy. Go outside and scream it to the world that you’re free and you’re strong and you have your entire life ahead of you. Go be you and allow yourself to enjoy it. Enjoy the love and attention and the energy that comes from putting in time for yourself. God knows you deserve it.