You are the reason for the crashing of waves and the chirping of birds. You are the sunrise and the sunset. You are everything, every reason to wake up. You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, heard, kissed, loved… You make life easy.
When I hear your laugh, I see memories of us dancing around to “Hold On To Happiness” by Rhys Lewis, hand-in-hand, giggling uncontrollably and I think “this is what my life has come to”, infinite happiness and a chest that feels so full of joy and hope.
It’s crazy to think that this is what my future holds; Evenings of laughing, dancing, eating, sometimes yelling, but for the most part, a sense of being complete in a world that can easily make you feel so lonely.
That’s what life was for me before you. Life was this constant battle within myself to feel accepted by everyone I met, everyone who read my writing, even the people I followed on social media and even then, feeling so fucking alone.
I remember feeling like everything in life was purposely thrown at me to prove that my failure was inevitable. It wasn’t until you came along and showed me that life is about finding the light in a pile of rubble and making something special of it that I finally felt like I would be okay and that this life and my perception of it wasn’t all it could be because I had no ambition to make it beautiful.
I remember our first night in our apartment. You went to the grocery store to pick up a few things and came back with a single candle, a bottle of cheap red wine, a box of pizza. You told me that our first night had to be memorable. We sat on the floor savoring every sip of wine, every bite of pizza and each other’s company. I remember thinking that life would be less perfect from this moment on because this night was the peak of it all and I was wrong.
Loving you has been moments of true love, faith and hope. You make me see life in a light I never knew existed and I have you to thank for that. You showed me that life is whatever I make of it. You make me wish I could hold on to some days forever. You make my life easier and I’m glad you did, because I don’t think I could’ve done it alone.