
You are still the one person I would let back in if you decided I was the one you wanted.
Easily.
I’ve gone against every piece of advice telling me to wait for the guy who knows he wants you right away. Iāve stuck with my gut on this one. And every day I pray Iām not making a mistake.
My friends tell me they donāt understand, and you know what? I donāt really either. I donāt understand any of this.
Itās crazy, itās stupid and Iām probably being way too naĆÆve about it all. But I clearly donāt care.
Maybe itās because I have an inkling our story just isnāt quite over yet, or maybe itās because of the way you make me feel. But I canāt completely walk away.
Youāre different. With you I feel like you actually do want me, you’re just not ready to let me in. You’re trying to protect whatever we could be for a better time.
While I’m not going to wait around for you to change your mind, I’m also still open for you to come back to me.
I am not going to put off any other potential relationships on the possibility that maybe one day you will be mine. And throwing away all hope for us is not going to happen. At least not anytime soon.
So continue on with your āhello beautifulsā and breathtaking hugs that keep me hanging on, I honestly donāt mind. But until you give me a peek into whatās going on in your mind, I wonāt be begging for your attention.
As much as I canāt forget the times we spent together, I canāt put my life on hold because of āwhat ifs.ā I canāt sit around feeling confused and overanalyzing every touch and every word you say.
It isnāt fair to my heart. It isnāt fair to continue giving it hope when it fears impending heartbreak. It isnāt fair to have it hurt each time I see you with some other girl.
I know I need to take a step back. I know I can do this while also leaving the door still open.
So here I am if you want me.
But I wonāt be here forever.