You May Have Been My Great Love, But You Will Not Be My Greatest

Hello, my great love, you’re probably wondering why we didn’t end up together or where it all went wrong. You may be just as confused as I am, because no matter how hard I look for the answers to all of my questions about us, I just couldn’t find them.

I’ve spent days wondering why a relationship that stood strong against so many trials suddenly crumbled into pieces, and it makes me think that maybe it was already broken to begin with, or maybe, just maybe, the strong foundation we thought we had was never strong at all.

I’ve had nights where I couldn’t sleep because I kept telling myself that I’ve lost my greatest love, the love of my life, and I don’t know where else to go or how to start moving forward because I’ve been used to you being there every step of the way. It took me months to realize that that was my mistake. Getting used to you being there made me lose my independence, it made my personality weak, I lost myself while holding on to you. I don’t know if the same goes for you, but I for sure didn’t like what I was feeling because I’ve never felt so defeated by my own self.

Losing you felt like my entire world had decided to shatter right before me, but I was wrong. In truth, losing each other was a blessing in disguise for both of us. One day I stumbled upon your social media and I saw that you finally stood up for what you loved, something that you found so difficult to do while we were together, and it made me glad that I left because it made you better.

I thought you were my great love, but I was wrong. I just thought of it that way because we’ve been together for so long. We hurt each other a lot of times during our relationship and still called it love, even if it wasn’t doing us any good, because we thought we were made for each other already. But I learned that time doesn’t guarantee that you will end up together forever. It’s a hard pill to swallow, but it’s the truth.

So, cheers to you, to us, for letting each other go. For allowing other people to enter our lives and nurture us further into life. Thank you for stopping by in my life and leaving a mark. I do not regret loving you; instead, I am thankful, because if it weren’t for you, I would’ve still been that weak person who depended on you to keep me strong.

Thank you, my great love, but you aren’t my greatest love yet. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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