I am extremely apologetic of what I have done, but I don’t seek forgiveness because I know I’m unforgivable. I just want you to heal. I wish you’ll stop hating and be freed from the negative feelings that is holding you back to become a better person.
You made some mistakes too. You violated me. You hurt me. I just wished you handled the situation better, but who I am to judge after all my BS. We both made a mistake. But I forgive you. I forgive you because I was the one who started messing up. Even you say there’s nothing for me to apologize, I will carry this burden until the day you finally healed and moved on.
I don’t love you anymore, at least in a romantic sense. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with you but that doesn’t mean I stopped caring. You were a part of my life, and that is something I despise. I don’t want to go back to those happy times together with you, because I want you to find happiness in yourself not because of me or anyone else. I want you to be freed from your attachment. I want you to live a hate free life and have a good heart. That’s all I want to happen.