I’m going to be 24 in September I have only had one girlfriend, and am still a virgin.
My love life for most of my life has been nonexistent and I want that to change. I wish this wasn’t the case, I wish I had dated more. Hell it hasn’t been because of total lack of trying. I went on dates with two different girls who ended up choosing their best friends over me. Two different girls I tried dating were introverted and didn’t really commit or try, it felt like I had to do all of the work and they still seemed disinterested. It might be me, but I like to think I’m a decent guy. I don’t think I come off as needy or a creep or anything. I’ve been debating about talking to someone about this. It’s tough for me to do this.
I’m no good at asking for numbers or even asking out on a date with girls who looking back were clearly interested. There was a girl I knew all throughout high school who I liked and I knew liked me and I never made a move. I had so many chances, too many chances, and I never did. I can’t tell you why honestly maybe fear, maybe uncertainty. Looking back on it now I feel like an idiot.
My first girlfriend was a great girl I did love her at the time and she did love me. But that ended that ended because I cheated on her because I didn’t feel like I was getting enough that was physical out of the relationship. We dated for about six months before it ended. She was Christian and was saving herself and barely let me get to second base. It was all over the shirt action. I know she didn’t mean anything by it but I felt teased and was getting frustrated. So I cheated on her with a girl that I was friends with at work. I felt so guilty that I told my girlfriend the next day. The worst part of that was that she loved me so much she was even going to allow me to keep this up with my friend from work if I had too. That was too heavy for me; it broke my heart to pieces. Made me feel lower than low. We ended up breaking up a few days later.
But that was three years ago. It’s been too long I want something new, something fresh I miss dating someone. I want that companionship, I want to go out places and have fun. I have a lot of great friends which is nice but I want something more than that. Being single does have its perks but I rather have that special someone. They say good things come to those who wait haven’t I waited long enough?
Maybe I need to get out there more meet new people but I’m not good at that. I’m not sure how to do it or where to go. I signed up for online dating but no one’s messaged me and those I have messaged messaged back a bit but not much. Am I doing something wrong? I wish someone could tell me, hell give me pointers or anything because I feel like it shouldn’t be this hard.