Why I Fall In Love In Ten Seconds

Last night, I saw the love of my life. She was sitting across the smoky patio in a softball uniform. Short blonde hair, not unlike a ‘60s bob. A skeletal frame drowned in green and grey polyester. A smile of slightly slanted teeth; imperfection uniquely rendered. Grazed by dirt and the cheer of team spirit, she infectiously grinned, intermittently glancing over at me with narrow eyes sucking me in like quicksand.

I pictured our life together. Taking her hand and tugging her to the nearest park to make-out on the see-saw. Discovering mutual phobias like our harrowing fear of neck wrinkles. Selecting matching patterned cases for our decrepit and brutally stained pillows we got from my parent’s storage space. Prophesying what we’d look like at eighty years old on a rickety, feebly swinging bench in the country. Death, and our cruelly, sarcastic gravestone etchings: “A little privacy please. I’m decomposing here.”

Images flipped like a Rolodex in my mind all within ten seconds. A sixth of a minute and I fell in love. Charting our love story, our pain, our partnership that withstood the emotional rogue waves that crushed us momentarily at various stages in our lives.

By now, you can presumably gather that I’m the quintessential Emo kid. As much as it pains me to say, I still listen to Dashboard Confessional and feel my stomach tightening as “Remember to Breathe” depressingly falters in the air. I blame Chris Carrabba’s saccharine vocals for a lot in my life, but I don’t believe it was an accident that I identified with those excessively romantic (or as douche bags say, ‘pussy’) themes.

I love love. I love it in the same way that I love any dream. It is pure idealism. It is like communism without people screwing it up. It is the same as dreaming of winning the lottery and every single thing you’d buy, and every thing you would give up (i.e. frozen dinners of any kind).

In ten seconds, I can see a girl and dream the entire story of us. Our fingers touching as we reach in simultaneously for popcorn. Our inside jokes that we utterly hang onto as our own. Our fiery stare deadlocked as I penetrate her, pursuing an eternal answer that I know I’ll never find, while being sublimely content to desperately search for it within her for the rest of my life.

The next time you see a guy on the street or in the subway or in the cereal aisle, it could be me nervously glancing over at you and falling in love. Leaning back and taking in our life story as it passes by in seconds. It’s beautiful. TC mark

image – Helga Weber

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  • cecile

    I think I’m in love with you.. Took a little while longer than 10 seconds, though.

  • Enah Cruz

    It takes me that much time to fall in love as well. And picture, in lightning speed the life that we could possibly have together. I didn’t know guys had that tendency too. This is very nice to know. Thanks. :)

  • Anonymous

    Woah this is too real. 

  • habitualtruth

    weird.

  • http://pickyourfuture.wordpress.com/ RebekahMeinecke

    This happened with me and my fiancee. Although, I actually went up and talked to him after our life had flashed before me lol.  I have to admit that our actual life has been a little different than the one I imagined but I guess this is what they call “love at first sight” :)

  • Anonymous

    I THINK I LOVE YOU ALREADY. Picture our life together within 5 seconds! Haha were meant to be.

  • charlotte

    the story of my life.

  • http://twitter.com/jenchatwrites Jen Chatfield

    Lovely.  I especially like ‘…while being sublimely content to desperately search for it within her for the rest of my life.’

  • http://dirtyyoungmen.wordpress.com Maxwell Chance

    I love love, too.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=707272007 Alex Thayer

    this happened to me the first time i saw lebron james on tv

    • Anonymous

      this is normal and an essential part of growing up

      • Anonymous

        sometimes lebron spends too much time on the perimeter, when all I want him to do is penetrate

  • http://twitter.com/Flarfer Dave P

    The sort of piece that makes me think that maybe I’m too old to be reading TC.

    • Halo_Override

      You’ve got a fever, and the only prescription is that Leigh Alexander posts every couple of weeks.

  • http://twitter.com/yanyun92 Lim Yan Yun

    thats only cause she’s hot.

  • A6310

    “Our fiery stare deadlocked as I penetrate her, pursuing an eternal
    answer that I know I’ll never find, while being sublimely content to
    desperately search for it within her for the rest of my life.” – best line ever.

  • Eden

    words a dude will write to get in a girls pants

    • Guesta

      no. just words a flimsy dude will write.

      • Eden

        flimsy dude find hopelessly hopeful female.

  • guest

    you really need to grow a pair

  • vejrubia

    Do you have a gay twin?

  • Avk009

    Communism is immoral.

  • Feminist1

    As a Black, jewish, lesbian, I find this article to be highly offensive.

    • Em

      Really? Why? (I’m not trying to start a debate, I’m just honestly really curious.)

      • Feminist1

        If you can’t see why this is offensive, it is evident you are a racist, anti-semetic, homophobe.

      • rob78ca

        Your comments make no sense…oh, btw…you might want to throw in some sort of disability to cover all your minority bases?…

    • Em

      Really? Why? (I’m not trying to start a debate, I’m just honestly really curious.)

    • supbetch

      lolz troll

    • Loserello

      As a native american, agnostic, lesbian, I find this article to be highly comical. 

  • Nat

    be careful falling in love with a short-haired girl in a softball uniform…  85% chance she’s gay? haha

  • L'Excessive

    “It is like communism without people screwing it up.” Hehe I love this article. And I’m so glad I’m not the only remaining closet Emo kid who’s way past the Emo age…

  • Em

    Reminds me of Haruki Murakami’s short story, “On seeing the 100% perfect girl one beautiful April morning”

    http://www.mat.upm.es/~jcm/murakami-perfect.html

  • http://www.nosexcity.com NoSexCity

    I think the best relationships you’ll ever have will be these 20 second ventures. The real deal cannot ever measure up to the whimsical standards set by the music you listen to.

    • Guesta

      it’s because people are lazy and stupid. they would rather retreat into their minds and dream, rather than face life and try to create a more beautiful reality.

      • Guesty

        Fuck you.

  • http://twitter.com/tannnyaya Tanya Salyers

    ahhh, christopher carrabba. <3 

  • DannyG

    That’s dangerous.. idealism has a way of ruining real life

  • Sara

    yup i do this too. however I’m still not brave enough to go up to the subject of my fantasy. That takes a lot of guts and i don’t like be embarrassed or humiliated or rejected… unlike everyone lol. but still!

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