Even after what happened to us, I still believe in the power of love. I am still in love with the idea of it. Without you, I am still looking forward to the days filled with sweets and romance. I am still rooting for the depth, width, and height of loving someone truly. It will happen. It still happens.
I’m not going to stop loving just because you stopped loving me. I said once that you were one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. By that, every decision that involved you led me to where I am now. You are still one of the greatest memories that life bestowed upon me. I won’t stop on giving my heart, wholly, to anyone who happily offers theirs. I won’t hesitate to open my arms for someone who needs a home.
I’m not going to push people away just because you pushed me. You told me to jump off the cliff and I did it – without even realizing that you were not there to save me. I fell into the vast ocean, without a vest on me. You know what’s the best part of it? I learned how to swim, got back on the sand, and became ready to jump again.
This is how strong you made me. This is how I learned to appreciate myself even more.
I’m not going to leave someone behind just because you left me. You are the one who taught me how to love unconditionally. I learned how to look at someone beyond their shortcomings. I learned how to appreciate people’s flaws. You are the one who taught me how to stay when everything was slowly falling apart. Now, it finally has fallen apart. I fought for what we have, for what it’s worth. But you chose to take a new adventure. You chose to chase a new route.
I’m not going to hate myself just because you hated me. I won’t forget the way looked at me before. I knew that there’s something gold within me. I knew that I am a blessing to every person who came into my life. My mantra is to see all the good things. I won’t stop on creating my own galaxies. I won’t stop shining.
I’m not going to distrust everyone just because you lied to me. You crafted a huge heart for forgiveness which has been cultivated within me. I won’t stop trusting people whom I love the most. I won’t lurk them within my dramas and issues. I won’t over-think about the “what-ifs” and “whys.” I will stay focused about the “what-now.”
I’m not going to give up on love just because you gave up on me.
I’m not going to close my windows and shut my doors. I’m more than ready to meet the right person who will be the answer to everything. I will fill myself with positivity and bliss. I’m not going to stuck myself on your labyrinth. I’m not afraid to step out of your shadows. I’m not blocking myself to try again, to begin again and to love again.
I may be loaded with baggage and so are you. I never gave up on us and I fought for you, really hard. And yet, thank you for making me realize these thoughts. You may have given up on me but you will always be one of my life’s significant lessons. I won’t stop on being the best version of myself, every single day.