I Fell For You Anyway

No, don’t look at me that way and please don’t beg for me to stay.

I’m in love with you and that’s not part of the plan. We aren’t supposed to have feelings for each other. So, I need to go.

I don’t want you to feel pressured, I don’t want you to pretend that  you feel the same. I just wanted to tell you so that you’d know. I need to go.

You should know that you’re amazing. Never doubt the fact that you deserve to be loved. The girl that you fall in love with or end up marrying will be very lucky. I’ll probably be envious of her. Again, I need to go.

I’ll never forget the time that I’ve spent with you. I’ll definitely miss you. It always felt a bit too much but it was never really enough. Our everyday conversations, movie/dinner/coffee dates, and kisses were never enough. Damn, I love kissing you. I really need to go.

I tried so hard to stop myself from falling for you because I know that you’ll never feel the same. But love is a wonderful feeling no matter how painful it can be, so I went ahead and fell for you. But now, I need to find someone who will love me back – that’s what I deserve. So I need to go.

There are so many times that I wanted to tell you that I loved you but I always stopped myself. So for the first and the last time, here it goes: I love you. I love you so much that the enormity of this feeling scares me. Deep in my heart I wish you’d realize that I could be the one for you but I know that that’s not going to happen. Maybe in another universe we’d end up together and I’d finally get to wake up in your arms everyday. But in this lifetime, all I can do is wish that you find love and happiness, even if it’s not with me.

I love you so much.

But I really need to go.

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