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I Just Thought You Should Know I Still Care

Ends are painful, irrespective of why they happened. Maybe it was meant to be or maybe you didn’t want it anymore. There is no one really to blame.

When you came back to be with me, I knew I couldn’t be with you anymore because it was not the right time, and then it was too late. Even though I already said my goodbyes, I just thought you should know I still care.

You may think that I have moved on and continued on with my life, but you are often in my thoughts as I wonder if you are happy. I just cannot call you because I don’t have that right anymore.

I wish you treated me better when you could have, because all I ever wanted was your love.

I often want to say, “Let’s go back to where we started and get a do-over.” If only it were possible—I would do so many things differently.

“What if” is the worst thing anyone can ever say to try to move forward because it means they don’t want to.

There is always pain in the heart, and often hurtful words conceal the true emotions. Looking back, I know neither one of us meant any of those mean words, but we were hurt, and we wanted to protect our ego, so we said whatever we did.

It would have been so much smarter to be more honest, but we wanted to prove a point. That was pointless.

It takes a lot of strength to be able to accept your happiness with someone else when I wanted that happiness with you. I accept your happiness with someone else and I admit I cannot stay friends with you because I still care.

I don’t think you want to be my friend either. What would we talk about as friends, anyway? Our separate futures that we once had planned together?

It takes maturity to be able to let you go and mean it, because a small part of you wants to keep holding on because a part of me continues to care.

It is not because I want you back—I am happy with where I am in my life. It is because I want to respect the person in your life, and I don’t want her to feel the pain of losing you that I once felt.

You will always be an important part of my life that used to be. I will always have memories of you, but I want to only hold on to the good ones. And I hope you will do the same.

I wish it were easier to let go and move on without having a care in the world, but there was a time in my life when you were the most important person in my life, and I had thoughts of us ending up together forever.

One of the things I loved the most about you is the way you talked about your family and I wanted to be a part of that. They were beautiful thoughts, but thoughts of the past.

I understand we ended because neither one of us had the courage or wanted to put in the work that togetherness needs.

You asked me often if I loved you, and I could never answer that, because if I did, it would become too real. I think you always knew the answer.

I will always wish you so much happiness, and I hope you are able to make all your dreams come true.

I think we met each other to realize what we wanted in someone. We were never sure about each other, but we have both found someone who is sure of us, and we have to appreciate that and fully devote ourselves to those people and love them completely.

Don’t give up on her the way you gave up on me. Let’s not repeat our mistakes.

Maybe things would have been different if we met at a different time. I just thought you should know I still care, no matter where you are.

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