When I Think About The Fact That We Didn’t End Up Together

Gabriel Encev

I switched off the lights hoping
for darkness to swallow
my feelings for you.
But I was a fool
to trust it.
Because darkness ate me whole.
Darkness made me remember you.

There was a light flickering
off the distance.
I wondered if it was hope
I wondered if I should chase it,
the same way I ran
after you.

I thought about crying,
embracing the pain,
feeling the hollow in my soul.
But my tears ran dry.
I probably should blame
it on the well
and not on the faucet.
I probably should point fingers
to anyone
but you.

The silence in the room urged me
to mourn for your loss.
Be upset –
punch the wall beside me
until my knuckles bled.
And scream on top of my lungs.
But the silence was so loud
I couldn’t even hear my own anger.
So I gave up; I let go.
I just sat in my bed
and watched our memories
slowly dance in my ceiling,
a black and white film.

There was something beautiful,
yet tragic in our sweet
little love affair.
Our love burned so bright
we set each other on fire,
until our bones turned to ashes
and set off in different directions.

I thought I should close my eyes
force myself to sleep,
but I grew up finding comfort
in the darkness.
I found home
in seeing almost nothing.
So I vowed to keep my eyes
wide open,
and forget you
all over again. TC mark

Angelo Caerlang

Angelo Caerlang is the author of Sparks in Broken Lights.

Seeds Planted In Concrete

This poetry collection by Bianca Sparacino is an assembly of words that celebrates the resilience of the human heart through stages of hurting, feeling, healing and loving.

“Be alone. Eat alone, take yourself on dates, sleep alone. In the midst of this you will learn about yourself. You will grow, you will figure out what inspires you, you will curate your own dreams, your own beliefs, your own stunning clarity, and when you do meet the person who makes your cells dance, you will be sure of it, because you are sure of yourself.”

★★★★★ “One of the best, if not the best, modern poetry collections you can read. Absolutely incredible. Her words are so wise, intricate and delicate that you feel them caressing your soul. I love this book, I love it so very much.” —Hayder

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