We ended everything between us in tragedy. I never imagined a day would come when you would become a stranger to me, again. I spent most of our time together daydreaming, fantasizing, wishing I’d grow old with you. I was hopeful. I was positive we’d live to see our future side by side.
I was dismayed to find out that you didn’t feel the same. I was only your temporary — the one you considered as disposable. Had I known your intention from the beginning, I wouldn’t have wasted a second of my time with you. I felt played, fooled, betrayed by you. And announcing to the world that you hurt me would be an understatement.
I had all the right to plot revenge against you. But I chose not to, because there’s no benefit I could reap from hurting you back. Instead, I have decided to let go. I have decided to move on.
I don’t want to waste my time living in the past. I am no longer interested in wishing things were different. I have a big future in front of me to discover, to pursue, to live. And I’m optimistic that I’ll find someone I can replace you with.
But I’ll be careful in selecting the person I’m going to entrust my heart this time around. You are one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned, and I’m smart enough not to repeat the same mistake again. I’m a better human being now that you’re no longer part of my life. And losing you has made me realize the importance of loving myself first.
I am not worried about looking for another one I can fall in love with, because I know what I can offer in a relationship. I know who I am. I know exactly what I want, and need.
I know how much of my heart I should give, and how much of it I should keep to myself.
I didn’t lose you. But you lost me. And someone out there is more than willing to make me their one and only, their forever. They are going to see how special I am, and how stupid you are to waste a person like me.
Someone is going to make me feel the love that I never experienced with you. And I’m going to take all of that love inside my heart and remind myself that it is what I deserve. It is the love that I was deprived to get from you. It is the love that I am excited to explore with another person.
My soul is ready to welcome a new and better replacement of you. I am happy with where I am right now because I choose to move forward in my life. I look all around me and see how everything doesn’t stop for one thing. And it inspires me to keep going, to refuse to remember you, to stop you from affecting me.
My heart feels lighter without a single worry of my past. And I want to continue living this way. I want to keep my eyes open for a new possibility, for a new beginning, for a new love story.
I need to let the hope in my heart burning and keep the embers from being cold, until I find the right one.
Because I’m confident, from the bottom of my heart, that I’m going to finally experience a love that is going to be permanent.