You Will Remember Me


I am at that time in my life when I am ready to settle down and find that special person that I want to annoy for the rest of my life. I finally have a career that I love, even though I have to be up at 5am. I get to bring my hairy beast with me. I have amazing co-workers who are like the brothers I never wanted. However, I’d like to have someone to enjoy my life with. Someone who is loving, caring, funny and adventurous. Who has a big heart and wants to show how much he loves me. Who will occasionally surprise me with my favorite flowers, or cheer me up after a bad day. Who allows me to be myself and have my own life outside of what we share. A man who will watch football, go camping, enjoy home cooked meals and make me feel like I am his world. However, sadly. Life isn’t a fairytale. Breaking hearts comes to easy. For someone like me who has rules when it comes to dating, it’s hard for me to get a second date. When it comes to meeting men, I’m not looking for hookups, booty calls or one night stands. I also, don’t want all of your free time. Or to even see you every day. I don’t want to jump into something, like my last relationship which took me almost two years to get over. I know, that there is someone out there for me.

I will never forget what that man said to me who found me outside after my breakup. “He’s looking for you and won’t stop until he finds you. He will put you on the pedestal that you deserve to be placed upon.” Anyone who knows me knows I am not a religious person. However, I will always consider that man an angel. From the moment he stopped me and said “he’s not worth the tears,” I felt like everything was going to be alright. Every time I think of that day, I cannot help but cry. It makes me realize when I am down, that the world isn’t over and everything, in the end, will work out as it should.

I have done a lot in 32 years, I’ve worked with lions, managed political campaigns, worked for Newsweek and even spent time with my idol. I have made an idiot of myself in front of players from the Houston Rockets. I have been to CPAC, DNC and have met with congress members on the hill, salsa danced with a presidential candidate during a presidential dinner. I am outspoken, blunt and occasional curse like a drunken sailor. I am a natural redhead, I have tattoos, I’m not afraid to work for what I have and what I need. I prefer the mountains over the beach. I’d like to watch the sunset with a glass of wine and watch the sunrise with a cup of coffee (black, two sugars) I believe every aspect of life has a silver lining and everything happens for a reason. I am not a religious person, and if you get to know me. I’ll give you the reason why. I have been through a lot both good and bad.

I am at that point where having someone to spend not just my nights, but my days with, as well. I have never been the kinda girl to sleep or date around. It was never my style. I wear a lot of ball caps, ripped up jeans and yoga pants. I also love my little black dresses, pencil skirts, and stilettos. I’d be more than content if I could wear flip flops 90% of my life. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

Amber is a writer with a caffeine addiction.

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