My ex was my first love, and when he broke up with me, it destroyed me. I loved him so much and he just left me.
I remember crying to my mother, asking her âHow can you love someone that hurt you so bad?â A friend of mine told me that I will always love him because he was my first love. I believed her at first, because four months after our breakup, I still loved him and still hoped he would come back.
Then something happened five months post-breakup: I woke up one morning and didnât love him anymore. I didnât love the boy who broke my heart and abandoned me. I didnât love the boy who always put me last during our one year relationship. I didnât love the boy who made me feel like I wasnât enough.
Yes, itâs possible to unlove someone, because I did. I wonât lie, he still bothers me. If I see him in the streets, yes, Iâll be bothered. If I see him with another girl, yes, Iâll be bothered. Iâm still bothered because he is the boy that acted like I never existed when he dumped me. He doesnât bother me because I still love him, he bothers me because he hurt me.
I will never forget him because he was my first love, and he showed me what I want in a future relationship, but I know I will get over him. I havenât forgiven him, and thatâs why Iâm still bothered by him, but I know it will come. I know one morning I will wake up and be done with him for good ,and everyone will know because Iâll quit writing about him.
To whoever is reading this and thinks they will love him forever, you wonât. The memories will slowly fade, and you will meet someone who will love you forever. 
