To My Ex-Best-Friend: I Forgive You

When I first met you, I didn’t like you. You seemed cold and distant but I had no choice but to get along with you because we were working together. Then a month later, we bonded over our love for reality shows and crime tv series. You told me about your parents living far away and your sisters putting you aside so I instantly soften towards you and said you could call me if you ever need anything; that’s when our friendship really started. As time went by, I discovered a funny and genuine girl in you. You were always ready to go out and treated me like your big sister right away, I felt responsible for you.

Our friendship became even stronger when a fuckboy played with my feelings and you were there every day to listen to me and I was there every day to listen to you about your difficult relationship with your boyfriend.

Then you introduced me to a guy that became my boyfriend for a year. It was at this moment that I looked at you and told you “You’ll always be my best friend”. My boyfriend, his friends, you and our friends became one big group and spent all of our time together. It was the best summer of my life so far.

But then, as we spent more and more time together, I discovered your flaws; your inability to received advice, your laziness and your constant need of drinking and partying. Then on May 6th 2019, my boyfriend at the time broke up with me. I never felt a pain like that before, it was like someone was stabbing me in the heart hundreds of time. You were there to comfort me… for 3 days then it was like I had to get over it because he was already over it. You chose a side, his side, in a situation that didn’t required you to choose sides. My ex broke my heart but you broke me in millions of pieces and then you stopped talking to me like my pain was too much for your little existence and to top it all, you sent me a nasty text saying that I was the fakest friend, that my ex didn’t care about me and that our friendship was over. It was like I didn’t know you anymore; the girl that used to kiss me on the forehead has now been replaced by a cold hearted bitch.

Even after everything you did, I still miss you. I can’t forget all the times we laughed our asses off in my car, all the times we danced together, all the times we held hands saying we were so lucky to have each other. I can’t erase that but as time goes by, I understand why our friendship had to end; we were way too different; different morals, different values, different goals, it was doomed from the start.

I just want to say thank you for having been in my life when I needed a best friend. I forgive you and I hope one day we can meet again and smile at each other.

Dog mother. Writer. Happy lover

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