I Like You, But It Will Never Be Enough

averie woodard
averie woodard

I don’t know the exact reason why I’m attracted to you. I don’t know the reasons why there’s so much force that keep my eyes clued to you. What is it that makes me so curious? Is it your mysterious eyes behind those glasses? Is it the way you seem to light up the room when you walk in? Or the way you speak because every word you say I can hear clearly.

We talked every day, you know what I’ve been through, I know what you’ve been through. I know we’re still in the stage of getting to know each other and I want to be friends with you but I guess we will never be just friends. It will always going to be there, the attraction between the two of us. It’s undeniable but it will never be enough.

I knew you were trouble the moment I laid my eyes on you in that room. I knew that from that moment on, you already got me. I’m so damn curious and it made me so nosy about anything that concerns you. I tried to deny what this is because I thought eventually it will go away. It’s just a simple attraction on my part. I don’t even know how we started. I don’t even know what we are. What this is we have? I came from a broken relationship and here I ‘am entering a much more complicated situation than the prior.

I don’t know if I’m going to risk my time again for something uncertain. What if what we have now is just for a moment or just a onetime attraction? What if you realize that I’m not what you want and I’m not what you expect? I know I’m the one who said that we should just enjoy this, just enjoy what we have right now. No complications and no commitments just a simple companion because we find each other interesting and I love talking to you about anything.

I know I shouldn’t stress myself and just go with the flow but I’ve been in this kind of situation and I know where this is going. It’s simple now but eventually it will be as complicated as a math problem. I’ve been burned before and I don’t want to go through that again. I know this will end bad one way or the other.

Maybe this isn’t a right time for us, or maybe there’s really no right time for something like this. I don’t want complications and you definitely spell complications. I like you but I guess there’s always “but” in the end. This attraction we feel will never be enough to risk everything in the line. It’s always going to be there, you and I. We can’t deny that we happened even though it won’t last.

Let’s stop while we still can, let’s not make this hard for the both of us. It’s selfish of me to think of myself and not think of what you want. But I guess after all, this is the only thing I can do to make everything easier for the both of us. I’m certain that in the future we’ll know that this is the right decision for the time being.

We could try to be friends someday when we finally can, when the attraction fades and we’re both fine to be in the same room again. Thank you for the short time that I get to know you. You’re one amazing human being. Thank you for the time you invested and I can’t thank you enough for the effort. You are so sincere and genuine. There are girls who are more than willing to replace me. I hope you find HER soon. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

A work in progress and a believer of fresh start and second chances.

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