I’m Not Supposed To Want Him

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I’m not supposed to look at him,
I’m not supposed to stare
because what if my eyes gave away,
hints of how much I care?

I’m not supposed to wonder
how his days have been,
but sometimes I just can’t help when,
the thought of him creep in

I’m not supposed to eagerly
wait for his reply
because all these hopes I’m conjuring
is nothing but a lie

I’m not supposed to let him
be a part of most my days,
that’s why I wish these feelings
inside me will one day fade

I’m not supposed to long for
opportunities to see his face,
to picture in my head all the
times we could’ve embraced

I’m not supposed to want him,
I’m not supposed to try
because I know his words will
one day make me cry

I’m not supposed to fall for
someone who’s heart is taken,
by someone who’s an angel;
that leaves me just forsaken

I’m not supposed to want more than,
what we have as friends
so maybe it is time to
put these feelings to an end.