They always tell you how it is. You know you have entered a new level of friendship with someone when they stop telling you white lies for the sake of your ego and start telling you the truth.
If you’re going through something similar, please know you’re not crazy. Feeling lost and thinking you’re crazy is normal. Keep pushing yourself to look inward for your true, free self. She is in there—I promise.
Sometimes a good person will exit your life so that a greater person can enter.
But seeing her, knowing she was gone, something about it felt so wrong. A life had ended. And the thought of continuing to do the same, to follow her path, felt wrong. I wish I could explain it more clearly, to find the right words, but I knew in that moment things had to change.
Without losing you I wouldn’t have forced myself to feel, to encourage the emotions I once ran from to surface, to feel the weight of tears or bursting energy of anger. I wouldn’t have shown myself it is okay to feel, to stand true in the thoughts of my mind.
If the love that you had was real, you won’t ever forget it. You won’t forget the memories. You won’t forget him or her. You won’t forget how your heart felt. If the love you had was genuine and real, time won’t erase that.
We still love those who have broken us and who have betrayed us. And that doesn’t makes us weak. That doesn’t make us dumb. No, that makes us beautiful. That makes us strong. That makes us courageous.
The year is 2005. I’ve just started high school. I was accepted into an accelerated program at a school in a different neighborhood than my own. I don’t know anyone there. I have no friends.
The gender roles that society puts on us, should not define the way we live. Be you.
If you learn to trust your feelings and honor them by telling your truth, you will likely see much improvement in your relationship.