You’ve watched them lie with ease. To get out of work. To get out of a ticket. To get out of going to a party.
It’s messy. It’s clear and muddy at the same time. It’s the biggest paradox we’ll ever know. And it’s almost a guarantee that at some point in our lives, we’ll have a crazy run-in with love.
Before that, I had always continued along my pattern. I had always tried to find someone to cure me. Maybe I thought finding someone more broken, would make me feel more normal.
“You remind me of sunshine. I’d almost forgotten what that was like.”
You came along. i expected you to knock, once, twice. and leave. i didn’t expect you to build yourself a tiny window. and everyday, your words, your smiles, your laughter, your softness. i remember the light.
So as for those walls you broke down? Well, they are back up. They are back up even higher than they were before.
It is not in the cool shade of safety, in staying, that your fear and anxiousness will leave.