You see, those times when she felt the weakest were actually her strongest moments. Because she suffered through them and made it out alive.
all I know right now are my tears and snot have soaked the sheets around me
Was it when he slipped the little white pill in my gin and tonic?
People would miss me. They would be sad. They would be pissed if I killed myself and I wouldn’t blame them.
But seeing her, knowing she was gone, something about it felt so wrong. A life had ended. And the thought of continuing to do the same, to follow her path, felt wrong. I wish I could explain it more clearly, to find the right words, but I knew in that moment things had to change.
I would consider myself an enthusiastic, outgoing and involved person — that’s why when some selected people found out I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, they didn’t believe me.
“Went out to the garage and found my husband. He had hanged himself.”
This is real life. The real life where people are afraid or unable to get help but does not change the fact that they need it. This is about a world that needs to change how they view and deal with mental illness.
He urged for anyone considering suicide to get the help they need while telling his very personal, extremely heartbreaking story.
I still think that this bruise inside of me, this dull ache beneath my ribs, will never go away. I know I am allowed to be deeply sad; that we are all allowed to be this deeply sad, still, after all these years.