You’re only listening to your brain, never your heart.
Pathological mind games. Covert and overt put-downs. Triangulation. Gaslighting. Projection. These are the manipulative tactics survivors of malignant narcissists are unfortunately all too familiar with.
You now blame me for the reasons you were unhappy, that I did not do a good job of making life easier on you or making you happier; but I was not the reason for your unhappiness – that came first.
Get into biographical stories.
You can’t hate yourself into loving yourself. It’s impossible.
Work on ending the insecurities than run through your head every day, work on you and only you. Don’t continue to go to war with yourself, it’s time to start loving you for you because you owe that to yourself.
Am I clinging to the future in hopes it will be better?
Stop looking for things to complain and be upset about. Will it matter next week? No? Then stop worrying about it.
Scorpio: Feeling too safe is your problem. You don’t like to be coddled, underestimated, or to feel disposable in your line of work. You need something that requires a very specific skill set, that demands emotional control, and that forces you to think outside of the box. The minute things get easy or predictable, you’ll find yourself once again questioning what you’re supposed to be doing with your life.
Chase unavailable people.