Thank you because when I believed I’d have no one else to connect with again, you talked to me like I seem to deserve a chance.
The truth is, I’d never have fallen in love with you if you didn’t make me.
You taught me no matter how much you want someone you can’t make them stay and you can’t make them love you.
You start feeling guilty about all the lost time, the time you wasted being mad at them, the time you wasted arguing with them, the time you wasted being stubborn and the time you wasted hurting them.
Some of us can’t—won’t—because the feelings we are able to have, we have because we are finally away from the person who breaks us down, from the past which cannot contain our passion and potential and satisfy our hunger.
You had a chance to break down my walls because I actually trusted you. I talked to you about my heart breaks, certain that you will never be one, I talked to you about my past, positive that you won’t be part of it and I talked to you about my dreams, confident that you will be in them.
I know people will call me stupid for this. But Love, I can still see the truth in your lonely eyes. I can see the long lost stars in the corner of your eyes – you know that the stars are my weakness. I see the boundless hopes of wanting me back into your life and that’s why I’m coming back to you.
I know that it will seem like they have changed, like they have laid to rest everything your heart opposed. After all, they were your best friend. They loved life into you, art into you. They knotted memories to your collarbones, kissed light into your sadness. They were everything to you. They were your future, your safety.
Laugh at his jokes, even if they are not funny. Love him even when he is not very lovable.
You miss my voice, my body, my company while you’re out drunk with friends at 2am. You text me but I ignore you out of respect for myself. “Fuck, I messed up”, you think.