After experiencing incredible, returning to normality is difficult. You’re life becomes mundane. You’re no longer surrounded with new experiences and challenges, you now know what to expect everyday. It’s like a come down.
This unholy war we’ve decided to call love. Maybe we just wouldn’t know anything else.
But who can understand that when the person who’s been holding on for so long falls apart, they don’t fall slowly, they don’t fall in pieces, instead; they crash down rapidly in one piece paralyzing every little part of them.
I miss my innocence. I miss feeling invincible. There is a small part of me that will always be frozen in time at fifteen, praying that things will turn out differently. I am still learning to be okay with that.
I refuse to fall in love with the idea of who you can be if I were to nip and tuck and patch and sew you into someone else. If I were to throw a blanket over the baggage in your ribcage, only focusing on the prettiest parts of you. I refuse to love you in halves.
A Pisces is quite easily pleased when it comes to vacations. All they need is a beach, a comfy place to rest, and an amazing view.
If that second chance does come by, I promise that I’ll never let you go again.
Tonight I don’t want to be OK, I don’t want to be fine and I don’t want to tough it out or be a fighter. I want to let my emotions win tonight, I want to set them free and I’m not going to numb them. Tonight I don’t want to be numb. I want to be sensitive and fragile and too much to handle.
It took me a long time to realize that it was okay to break down. Breaking down is part of healing and it should not be stigmatized. It is simply not NORMAL to never cry, or express emotions, or feel sad.
Depression is the girl who laughs the loudest at the jokes you tell and her smile is usually the brightest. You see, depression is not easily detected.