I fear that I am going to be alone forever.
You become more isolated than ever while continuously telling yourself that you’re okay. Better days are ahead. Yet, you’re not sure how far ahead those days are. And how long you can keep living this way for a day that may never come.
We fought as hard as we loved. But love we did. It took five-years for us to figure out it wasn’t working anymore. Neither of us have any interest in converting, and this here was the biggest issue in our relationship. Religion.
When I thought I was being selfless by loving you against all odds, I failed to see how I was actually hurting you. I prided myself in knowing you best, only to be blinded by my thoughtlessness.
Your heart is valuable and vulnerable. It is passionate and deep. It is filled with pieces of who you are and you shouldn’t let someone who doesn’t properly care for it destroy that for you.
Stop worrying about when and where and how you’ll find your person. Stop feeling like you’re running out of time. Stop comparing your journey to everyone else’s and be happy where you are, right now.
We all make promises, of course. We tell people we love them, we care for them, we could never live without them, but most of the time it turns out to be nothing more than empty, wishful thinking.
You’re doing everything you possibly can to shake this unwelcomed feeling, that has made a home inside you.
What I fail to understand is why did you make me fall for you when you weren’t even going to be there to catch me? Why did you go all in, say all those words, make me believe that you were actually in love with me?
Depression is being the happiest saddest person, people know but there’s a bit of beauty to someone who knows both emotions at such an extreme level.