This is all incredibly moving.
You were my best friend and I fell in love with you. But ever since that day, you’ve taken me for granted.
My heart immediately sinks when I roll over to your side of the bed and my skin doesn’t brush up against yours.
You need to let that love and that person go. Because unfortunately, there is no turning back from the words, “I don’t love you”.
Be present in everything you do. Pay attention to the food you eat and how good it tastes, to the wine you drink and how pleasant the flavors are, to the movie you’re watching without simultaneously scrolling through your phone and missing all the important parts, to the walk you’re on and how beautiful your surroundings are. Put in the effort, one day at a time, to open your eyes to the life you’ve created for yourself. Because as they always say, if you blink, you really might miss it.
But he doesn’t come back; in fact he barely even looked back at the wreck he left behind because to him it wasn’t a big deal. To him you weren’t really dating so why should it matter that much?
When you’re crying on your bathroom floor you have to be the one to pick yourself up. When you’re hurting you need to know the best way to cope because someone won’t always be there to help you heal your wounds.
I loved you for who you were. To your friends and all your drunk adventures, I loved all of that.
If only this was a story written in words and not real life; if only I could state how my eyes locked back the tears every time they blinked looking at you; if only I could put down the warmth of my hands every time they were wrapped around yours.
Remind yourself that Churchill lead a country while battling depression.