Long distance relationships are at once entirely isolating and uniquely intimate. They highlight your resilient solitude and paper-thin vulnerability, sometimes multiple times in the same day. They always begin and end with a dial tone, one way or another.
We all lust. And that is the tragic truth.
You can love someone in a way you never loved your ex.
We hear about people breaking up all the time because of cheating, lying, violence, disrespect, and many other things. But how many couples disband because they just don’t fit together?
He was my first date – ever.
“I kind of want to make out with you in the bathroom, though.”
You begin to want more. You knew you would have to wait for him to come around, but months have passed and everything is still superficial; something is just missing.
You have introduced each other to your friends.
It makes you trick yourself into believing that you really didn’t lose much. If you didn’t lose much, it’s easy to move on. So, you blame them. You demonize them.
I let down my guard, and let the chips fall where they may. Maybe I’ll end up hurt. Maybe he and I will eventually be together. But regardless, I took a risk.