You can’t just text me out of the blue and demand a response after going months without texting me, after you made me wait anxiously for a response I never got.
For you this is moving on. Feeling every inch of the pain. Reminding yourself over and over again that you lost the love you wanted to last. You lost the person that you wanted to spend the rest of your lifetime with.
I told you that if you left it was going to be for good.
Forgiving does not mean I’ll forget the past or give up my human rights. Instead, forgiveness is an active way for me as a sexual assault survivor to stand up for myself and preserve my future.
My brain screamed “I need to stop loving you!” but my heart said “It will always be you.”
But even though you do not love me anymore, there has never been a moment where I have regretted all that I have done for you
I built you up. I asked you to be vulnerable, to open up to me and to talk about your previous heartaches. My intentions were never to hurt you.
I lost and I loved and I lost everything again and again
Let go at your own pace.
The pain becomes your motive, and you do things because you’re hurt, or sad, or angry. And while heartbreak is all of these terrible things, it still isn’t something to fear.