Moving On

We aren’t given the people we want in life—we are given those we need. The ones to be there for us no matter what, in order to know true love. The ones who leave us early, to know the value of a life. The ones who treat us terribly, so we know what we deserve (and that we deserve better). The ones who break our hearts, so we know what healing is. The ones who defy us, to give us courage. They all come together to make us who we are.

I haven’t heard his voice in too long but even thinking about his smile makes me want to throw up. His name came up when co-workers and I were brainstorming ideas for a project and I pictured having to face him and I just froze. I couldn’t breathe.