We mistakenly promise to do something that we cannot possibly know.
They didn’t mean to fall for each other. The decks of cards in each of their hands were not favorable for them to be lovers; she was two years into her marriage and he was recently divorced.
He knew I was a different person now. I knew it too. He kneeled next to me and kissed my hand. I knew his heart was aching and he was mourning the loss of our future too.
Women going half on a ring is a prickly topic because of what society tells us about what women deserve in love, what men should provide, and the role that money plays in demonstrating said love and worth.
The brutal truth about this is that sometimes love just isn’t enough. You need more than that; you need reassurance, intimacy, patience, time, honesty, and the ultimate key communication.
You stay when you’re sure no one else could ever love your partner better than you.
Words have cut me deeply but words have also restored me. I hope that I can be the one to reach out to someone suffering silently though month after month of heartbreaking treatments and remind them that, even if a baby never comes, they are truly enough.
I don’t deserve you. You deserve more – so much more.
“Don’t you want what everyone else has?”
“I vow to always make time for you and to initiate occasional date nights (and intimate midnights) with you, no matter how stressful and busy life becomes.”